Ok, this is not the whole thing as promised but I had to vent right about now so here I am.
I've spent the last 3 days with the same group of friends. At first, we were all ok. Fine, having a laugh. Then, one breaks down because she likes a guy in our circle of friends who doesn't like her. But it seems like she's dealing with it so we help her along but it doesn't look like it's going too badly. So we just say we're here when she needs us and leave it as we don't want to push her. The next day, another friend breaks up with her boyfriend of 2 years and is a wreck so we spend ages consoling her and looking after her. All this time, the first friend seems ok. Then just around half an hour ago, she disappears. We were all walking around and doing different things so no one noticed. Now we have noticed and no one knows where the hell she is. So we try calling her, we try texting her, she doesn't answer her calls and the only reply we get is that she's ok and on her own. But at this time of the night? In this area? What the fuck is she thinking? Don't get me wrong, I love my friends and I appreciate that everyone has their own things to deal with but seriously? Why flip right now? We were all getting along just fine. She had told me she wants to talk to me alone tonight but we hadn't got the chance so it hasn't happened because we've been surrounded by people and now this. I just don't know what to think. Two of my friends have gone out looking for her but she could be anywhere. This is fucking ridiculous.
What I don't get is whether she's being attention seeking or what. What the fuck is going on? Just when I thought we were all getting along fine and that past things had left no awkward feelings, this goes and happens. Why? Yes, the guy she likes is here but she's been fine so far. Hell, we were al bundled in a make shift bed on the floor last night, everyone being cuddly and all. It just makes no sense why she's doing this. She's the one who invited us round to hers. She's the one who decided to have this night. And yet she's gone and wandered off alone. Why?
it makes no sense to me. I'm hoping we get her back in one piece and all ok but I have no idea right now. I'm worried sick. I don't know what's happening. I want to know what the fuck is going on! But she won't say anything. I'm sorry, this might be selfish but I'm dealing with my own things right now. I can't bear the idea of losing a close friend right now. And especially not because she decided to wander off on her own without telling anyone anything or answering her phone. Fucking ridiculous. Is it too much to ask to find out what's happening? It's past midnight, we're not in the safest area.
Ok so my two friends are back. And now, it turns out one of the knows where she is but she doesn't want anyone else to know. And we still don't know what the fuck is going on. It's fucking ridiculous. I've lost people because they've wandered off alone. This is one thing I can't deal with. I'm not losing another friend like this. Is it my fault? She said she wanted to talk to me. Is it because I didn't talk to her when she got back? I've already lost two people cos they've wandered off alone. And now, apparently she's ok but I can't be sure until she's back and it's pissing me off. It's bringing it back. Very few things scare me. But losing friends like this does. I just hope she gets back soon.
